Malaria (9. Jan. 2008)

       I've been pains with my bornes' joints twice. It was sign of Malaria. Then I got the test result back from blood and uring. I got malaria.

        That morning, I was crying, and I listened to MP4, then one Christian song said, "Come and see, Jesus goes on the cross, it was unbearable pains, come and see, Jesus forgave those who did not know God, come and see, he was on the cross, and suffer for you, come and see." I could experience the pains as Jesus nailed on the cross. I cried bitterly with the loud voice.

       I saw the sun which came to my bed, God has pomised me each time, I'm crying, He will send the sun to shine upon me, and comfort my lonely heart. He has always done as He has promised for me for a long time ago at Christchurch in New Zealand. And his love has touched my heart, so I trusted Him enough, so I came to Morogoro in Tanzania. Because I can sense His love, if there are no love at all in the world. I knew the deepest love of God in any situation. Then his love has grown in my heart. then I can love CAG church sisters and brothers in the deepest way. For God has shown unconditional love to me, and I learn to show his love to other, sometimes, I fell that I have had the broken heart without love. And I need the whole heart, I may love again with God's love and strength.

       Many years in mission field, your friends have forgotton me easily, but Jesus is always my best friend when I need Him. He is my best husband (Isaiah 54: 5). He knows how to respect me as a loyal woman, it unlikes Tanzania men. God has honored me as her daughter, He has sealed me with His covenent. I can sing and dance in the presence of God. Because His love is endure forever and ever, and his love shall be passed on someone in needs as my prayer for today.